2 February 2012, 4:26 pm
Im 15. I have absolutely no love from my family. Since age 6, my mother and brother have called me fat endlessly, taking me to doctors appointments trying to get me medicine. Two days ago, at a baseball game, my mom told me i needed to stop eating when I asked for vegetable sushi, because I had fries about 3 hours before that. My brother hits me if I do something he doesnt agree with. Not in a caring way, like if Im doing something bad, but something like asking him to turn the tv down because its on the highest volume and its 10:00 PM and I want to sleep. My dad used to be the only person I could trust, but within the past couple months thats changed drastically. Yesterday he told me I should go get in an itsy bitsy bikini and lie outside, and I dont think thats normal father behavior. Then, later last night, he was watching porn while I was in the next room, with the door open. I have no friends I can trust, because they all accidently share my secrets, so no one knows all this. They all ditch me for their boyfriends/girlfriends and only come back when Im all they have left. Seriously, I have NO ONE I can trust. I often feel incredibly lonely. I dont think Im that bad a person either. I always forgive my family (even though they prove me right when I know theyre going to do it again), Im a vegetarian, I try my hardest to be nice and include everyone, Im pro-life, I dont do any immoral sins. Im a virgin. I honestly cant think of anything for deserving this. Its not even that I dont have a bunch of good stuff happening for me; its that Im so miserable because of my surroundings. I cried myself to sleep way too often. Anyone, please explain to me why my life has so few oppurtunies for happiness!... Read More »
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